Whatever Blows Your Skirt Up by Heather S

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Hey...you have to promise not to tell my son I said this but...he already gave me my Christmas present. It's like this...

After his session with his therapist he said to me on the way home, "If I tell you something, will you promise not to explode on me?" I just said, "The best I can do is promise to TRY not to explode." So, he told me about that girl that he was so taken with...picking her up, she took him to a party. They gave him xanax (which he flushed) and he said, "I tried pot. I just wanted to see what it would do...it isn't that I wanted to do it all the time...I just tried. But I don't want you to be disappointed in me." I took a breath and I said, "I told you at one point that you would probably try some things out of curiosity. So...what did it do?" "Nothin'. I got a little tired...but nothin'. I think I was too angry with her." I said, "Well...now you know. The only way I would be disappointed in you is if you took up smoking it on a regular basis." "Oh, I don't want anything to do with any of that stuff...or HER." "You know, TJ...as I've always said...life is difficult enuff dealing with it with a clear head...you don't need to muddy it up...and it doesn't make anything any better...it might just make it worse." He just said, "I don't want to be like my dad when it comes to that stuff. I was just so afraid of disappointing you. But you taught me well, I was raised right. They can't suck me in." I just told him I was proud of him for standing his ground and that he isn't allowing some pretty face to lead him by the nose down a path that he wouldn't follow on his own. He just said, "She's messed up." I am proudest of the fact that he doesn't take after me...trying to 'rescue' her from her life. You can end up sucking up your own life.

But, you know, if he wants to make me something...like he did last year...or buy me a little thing...it's okay too!