I haven't been able to sleep at night. And during the day I am so tired. Tonight I managed to fall a sleep for a short time. But very short.

The wind is blowing...hard and fast. I am not a fan of wind. A gentle breeze is one thing...strong wind is another. Perhaps I was scared by the Wizard of Oz as a child.

It isn't just the wind outside that is bothering me. It was the storm that gathered and whipped through the house today. My mother told me that she can tell by looking at my dad's face in the morning if it is going to be okay, or if she has to steer clear. I don't even get that luxury. It is like Arkansas weather around here...it can be bright and sunny one moment, a tornado closing in the next...no warning. Today I would have classified it as an F3...possibly a 4. And for some reason...I dont' know why...I had this overwhelming urge to laugh hysterically. I had to take a deep breath and hold it. I've never been able to find a trigger, really. If there is anything specific, he isn't sharing.

Pete (the new hamster) got all the love today. How he rates, I don't know. Guess he hasn't been around long enuff to be irritating.

Besides the obvious storms...I have a whole lot of things spinning in my head at the same time. My classes, my son's new schooling and trying to get used to it/keep track of it, housework, getting the taxes done, other household finances, doctor appts., the kids' meds...too much. I now have a 'planner' that I carry with me. I have to cuz there is way too much for me to keep track of now. Scheduled whole class cyber meetings for TJ, his doctor appts, my daughter's extra curricular stuff, my classes...and then there is 'The Storm's' schedule (when he cares to share).

Added on top...my father's health has become a major issue. More testing and possibly specialists. His dad died of a major heart attack when he was the age my dad is now. My dad has blood pressure and cholesterol problems. The major headaches he is having coupled with the bright red of his face and neck when he even tries to exert himself any.

Then...my younger sister...who lives not too far from me. Pregnant again...and her health is not too good. She will be 38 in another month and she is seriously overweight. She is having problems already. I'm wondering if things are going to go okay for this baby. for her.

Too much blowing through my mind. I really am not a fan of strong winds.